Well, im not anorexic yet, but i think im on good way to become anorexic, cause i feel big change inside me. Thats like i am not thinkin´if this food tastes good or bad (i really don´t care about the taste), but i think how many calories it has!
I´m starting to be a little afraid of myself, cause i really can´t eat - even i want! Just only sometimes i have those terrible days absolutely out of control when i am able to eat everything what i see ... and then i feel so bad and im starving myself for days until i feel pure and empty again.
How it comes?
I dunno exactly. I lived different life before. Every day i had big breakfast (usually 2-3 breads with butter and honey and cup of cocoa), now when im thinkin´about my old lifestyle i feel like a pig... cause when i see my photos i feel i looked like this...
My usual "trips" to McDonald´s and KFC´s ends (well, it was too because i joined PETA street team and find out cause "KFC´s cruelty" so i don´t want to go there again), but i just wanted to tell that i ate so much junk food.
Actually i haven´t seen (and eaten) McDonald´s pomfrites and stuff for year and i don´t miss it...
I think it will comes worse and worse, cause right now im able to have just one apple per day and i don´t feel hungry.
I know that is not good and i know how ANA ends, but still ...
